Getting a Good Grip on Your Worth-Or Battling Perfectionism from the Standpoint of the Non Negotiable

By Monica Ross

There's a clip that I use in sessions. I keep coming back to it.  So, I'm just going to pause during my lunch break here and get this post out before entering into a block of sessions this afternoon.

The clip is less than a minute in length.  Anytime I use multimedia I ask for permission from my clients and try to keep it to a minimum. I also only use something, if I think it applies. As we know with the learning process in general, sometimes it helps with learning to go over the same material but in a different way.

Here’s the clip.  Brené Brown, of course, has gained in popularity over the past several years.  I have so many other readings that admittedly I haven’t taken the time to go through all of her stuff and in some sense, I feel like I’ve come across the material that she presents in other ways. 

But, in the above clip she’s talking about value, one’s own perceived value.  I incorporate a lot of cognitive behavioral therapy in sessions (CBT) and what Brené says at the beginning of this clip is very much CBT oriented.  She says: If you go through the world looking for evidence that you don’t belong you will always find it.

What I point out to my clients is that you can fill in the blank with all sorts of replacements “If you go through the world looking for evidence that __________”

-you are weak
-you are powerless
-you are bad
-you are inadequate
-you are a failure

Then she goes on to say “Our worth and our belonging are not negotiated with other people, we carry those inside of our hearts.”  I think that people who sometimes come in with issues related to self-esteem find themselves in life in some ways battling with someone or something over their self-worth.

I see that as entering the "negotiation phase" as Brené Brown says.  The automatic thinking goes something like this, “Well my boss did call me in to point out that I better improve my performance in this area and if I don’t I could possibly get laid off, so I must be a failure” or “My wife told me that if I don’t lose the weight she’s going to leave” or “I have difficulties letting people get close to me because they will find out how deeply flawed I am.”

In all of these fictionalized examples, the person speaking has placed a condition on their worth based on different situations they find themselves in.  The underlying thinking sounds something like: If I can keep my job, I can prove my worth.  If I can lose the weight, I can prove my worth.  If I can sustain this marriage, I can prove my worth.

What’s being left out are two things 1) all of the mitigating circumstances and contributing factors that lead to the situation 2) the idea in the first place that one’s worth could be a topic of conversation for the day. 

What if the person facing job loss is in the wrong profession?  What if the person with the weight issue doesn’t, in fact, have a weight issue, but a marital problem?  What if the person who does not find themselves in close friendship is not in anyway flawed, but has difficulty finding people to connect authentically with in a world that at many times can be so unauthentic?

In other words, there are alternative ways of looking at each of these scenarios.  But the one thing that remains constant throughout is that a person’s worth, a person’s dignity should never fall into question.  Because we all have inherent worth and dignity. 

This is a non-negotiable.  Part of the work of therapy is to get a lock-solid grip on that concept.  And there are various tools for getting there. Time and again in life we will encounter relationships that end, we’ll be the recipient of mean things said or done, we’ll make mistakes--it’s part of being human. 

Life can be god damn messy at times, no doubt due in large part to miscommunications and misperceptions and randomness. But here is the take away for me and part of what I want to try to impart to others as I do this work.

There doesn’t need to be the fear that people will hit on that thing of all things that we guard so well against, because if people only knew, then they’d reject us in the same way that we reject ourselves.  That thing whatever it is and whatever it causes us to believe about ourselves isn’t true.

So there's no need to fear it.  It’s an opinion, a false assumption.  

Once that is realized instead, the above list can be replaced with:

--you might feel powerless at times but you can control what you can control
--you may have done “bad” things, but that doesn’t make you a bad person
--there are times in life where we miss the mark and fall short in some way and feel inadequate, but we can accept ourselves despite our shortcomings, as we are on the path towards self-improvement

If perfectionism is about meeting all conditions.  And those conditions are tied to our self-worth. Then we can let go of the need to be perfect because our self-worth is nonnegotiable and from that perspective, we already all perfect.  Perfectly imperfect.